And Im so scared that deep down I am this deceptive crazy non-committed person. Im 25 and Ive only been sober 7 months, and Im not going to sugar coat it its been really hard, but in a way that is so rewarding. Last night I was so drunk and hooked up with 3 different people and was trying to hook up with other people too. Being drunk is one of the most common reasons behind people embarrassing themselves or being stupid. I humiliated my husband by kicking his coworkers out, whom I had invited to our home. Im 99% sure that he was the one behind a recent friend request, because i usually never get those and i didnt know the person at all. I didn't black out and my mind was still in-tack, but I was incapable of walking on my own. After a few hours, I was able to walk myself home. Thats what we have done much of in the past. Now, as a sober, recovering alcoholic, I dont have that escape anymore. That's your self image. Maybe I told the guy on party about silly sexual jokes IDK. Oh, the humiliation! Im 29 years old and engaged to my beautiful fiance who i have a baby daughter that turns 3 months today. Its as if i am repeating my childhood except im not the scared child , im the angry man with the bottle. I had some other cringe worthy interactions that night, and being blackout drunk means I don't remember most of it. I feel completely shameful about my behaviour, I cant believe I acted so ridiculously. Last night I was on Twitter posting about running for political office in my state. This one is not too bad and it was last week Time helps everything. I only found out from the two sober chicks who eventually brought me home, but not without one of the guys trying to kiss me, and supposedly I was giving one of them a foot message and creeping up his leg? Soooo Ive just started a new job and have only been in the office a few times due to lock down so was looking forward to meeting some other people in other departments but stupid me overdid it like I always do! Im very embarrassed and ashamed by my behavior and I literally never wanna drink again. My friend told me that he was kicked out of the street bike gang thingy theyre in, idk and My god, so dramatic. I rather be with people than be alone. I guess they got pissed that the guy I was talking to was making me laugh and smile but I always do that and tbh, even more when Im drunk. Getting too personal and sad. I truly believe I paid but part of me thinks I may not have which makes me feel terrible. I feel really dumb. The first time I went past my limit, I was with a new friend and we shared a couple of bottles of soju. on 2023, June 8 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/debunkingaddiction/2015/07/forgiving-yourself-for-embarrassing-drunken-behavior. Drinking with my family and friend at a party, my sis and her boyfriend were there too, I have 10 years on them but the other folks are double my age so i hung out with them as a cool older brother. SO the next morning, I called out of work, although everyone knew it was because I was hungover. I had gone out with my friend (the one who dragged me home after soju fiasco) and we were just exploring the city. Good luck to you. Sometimes I wonder if I may have a problem because I do love a drink. I want to apologize to the owner of the house but him and I havent exactly been on good terms for a while. I went out with friends on Saturday. And a little dripped to our neighbors place below us. It wouldn't hurt you to seek out a diagnosis and psychotherapy or medication as appropriate at this point, but it may not be necessary either. I am a foreigner living in a monocultural society, so I stand out regardless of what I do. Thank GOD they left me alone, as I woke up on the sidewalk with the sun coming up and I was able to walk the 20 minutes home with the aid of my phone which I'm so lucky I still had. We are who we are in the moment, and that is always changing. I turn into a scary monster. I couldnt bear to show my face, which was swollen and aching at that! The first step to getting over embarrassment is acknowledging the situation or mistake. I dont know why its so hard for me to say no to alcohol or why its so hard to not drink until obliteration. Blacked out but remember a gay guy pushing me down my head to make it look like I was sucking his d which I obviously took offence to which must be what set me off, my daughter came to pick me up and said I was yelling and swearing at a lady there (I THINK I know who it was) o feel like trash, reading these comments have helped me a bit so thanks everyone but Im really dreading Monday and I feel like it will be brought up, I feel worried and scared, dont know if I should bring up what happened and now feel like a total fool. I wasnt feeling it at all. I have had a quite confusing relationship with alcohol, almost like a love/hate one. Ugh, worse yet it was to the one coworker I was pretty scared to be alone with because Im pretty sure he would have tried something and my brain wouldnt have known better. I was very loud and obnoxious saying please baby I never get to go out. I do have a problem with when to stop, especially when Im upset. In some instances, those stories are laughable and can be shaken off or simply shared in jest. So I drank more because I was furious. Im tired of feeling this way. At the same time I just want to drop off the face of the earth and not drink anymore. The highest form of love is forgiveness. Depression, anxiety, etc. There's a pain we are trying to run from, and it may follow us to our graves until we face it. It's probably because I'd mainly drink beer and would only buy 4-5 cans and that would be enough. I try to talk with him but I cant remember what we were talking about. But Im mortified. I just feel like I don't belong in this world. I have done insane things in this condition, like pull knives on people. I ruined a lot of relationships by drinking but honestly I just need to stop going around people that drink because it makes me want to drink so maybe its a good thing I found myself in this position to cut out those people anyways, So i am 42 and been a functioning alcoholic basically my entire adult life. But now I would like to share my most recent horror story, hopefully my final painful lesson with alcohol. If you hurt someone or offended them by embarrassing yourself, it makes sense to offer a genuine apology. I had a couple of shots and was fine and then his other friend came over. We talked about it later when I snapped out of it and everything was fine but I can't get over it and I feel like suicidal. People become different people when they use drugs (including alcohol) to excess. Those are the thoughts racing around your head in the immediate aftermath of that foot-in-mouth moment. Its been two days so Im not feeling as much self loathing but boy was yesterday rough. We get to the bar and they have an "all you can drink" for 90min for just around $15. Today, I cried after trying to make myself feel better about what happened. I was smoking cigarettes which I never do unless Im blacked out, and ugh. I just can't stop having this feeling and I hate myself now. One sincere apology is enough. Thankfully, I was taking the train home with 2 of the people who went. I think that is the absolute worse, when you black out and don't remember. Now, switch from actress to director and focus on the context of the memory: What was the weather like? Start with 2 minutes and add a minute after you get comfortable with that. There was a guy at the party, lets call him Jack, I didnt want him there particularly, hes never given me a good impression and has a history of acting very strangely and badly. I dont remember anything after Melissa left. That I DESERVED a night of drinking. I hope no one from my work saw me. If you arent able to quickly identify five things you love about yourself, you need to adopt some daily practices to boost our self-esteem. Reserve Your Masterclass Place Blacking out when drinking I need to stop period before something happens. Give it a try: Pick a memory, any memory. throughout the evening he was slapping her (uncomfortably hard) and barking orders at her like some animal, i just had enough. I did not want to do it but for some reason I agreed. After a few minutes I remember I was dead and passed out on the ground, He wasn't that drunk and he was a few years older than me, The only thing I remember is that he opened my mouth by force when I was passed out with the closed eyes and he kissed me in front of the people that I see more than 4 times every day, I was friend with some of the boys and girls but mostly they were boys. People are too concentrated on the own lives to dwell on one drunken mistake of yours. She stormed out of the Irish pub we live nearby that I go to here and there as its very nice and the bartenders are very friendly Irishmen. I'm going to try and be sober for life now, and a part of me feels sad about that. Hes like I knew you were in a relationship. Don't Act as If . My memory is spotty from then on but I remember him kissing me at the other bar, I think I wanted to get away from him because I ended up outside sitting on a picnic table at a food truck with a group of sketchy men. I guess Ill never really know. Give it a try: Pick a memory, any memory. DM me on Insta, jacobyyc_ i wanna hear all about it lol, I was blackout drunk on a Saturday afternoon and my husband and I were fighting with everyone and ourselves. I remember going straight up to my crush and saying something flirty in Spanish. I remember talking to people, apoligizing for misbehaving in the past then I blacked out but stood up again only to be thrown out by the bouncers because I was suddenly bleeding heavily out of a small cut in my finger I somehow got into a emergency car. So I was in a weird headspace having to dumb myself down for a few people I knew werent for me. And around 1am Sunday morning, I went to the washroom and fell back against the toilet tank and broke the tank. I know. It is embarrassing and I have hurt some of the closest people to me. There is a lesson here i have yet to learn. It took me a while to get to the point where I couldnt have another night like that. Each seasonal gig lasts about 4-5 months, although every place is different. I was out with work colleagues knocking back brandys and it all hit me at once. and i spent $400 and im a regular at the club lmao, so yeah i bet they appreciated me buying everyone shots tho but i was so gone. Hey, I get it!! It was very embarrassing. some of my cousins had to pick me up and hold me to walk. There are ones on YouTube that can guide you. I totally understand your embarrassment as I can relate to posting stupid things online while under the influence, but this one is funny. The second time I went over my limit, I was at another new friend's house and I basically just fell asleep after drinking too much. Exactly how you feel. I feel so much shame and guilt. I was aware of how drunk I was but no coherent sentence would come out. I wont drink alcohol anymore. I hardly drink like that, but I hate alcohol .. In reply to I've known that I was an by Anonymous (not verified), I hope you've managed to stay sober or at least drink less, its worrying that a girl is getting to the point where fellas are taking advantage, please stay safe & i mean that with an open heart , My boyfriend and I had a house party on Saturday. This site complies with the HONcode standard for This girl Melissa was there and she was very chatty and I was pretending to be interested in what she was saying but I wasnt. In reply to Im awake lying in bed by Anonymous (not verified), dont worry haha LAST NIGHT I WAS MAKING OUT AND CUDDLING WITH A GUY AT THE TABLE! I hate myself right now. I think I had about 3 Jack Daniel's cocktails, 3 sake cocktails, one tiny bottle of sake, and like 2 other drinks that I cannot remember. I also think for some reason when Im around everyone in my friend group and we are bar hopping my mind switches to binge drink mode. I feel like I embarrassed my partner and my kids, and I dont know how to stop the thoughts and feelings of dread that Im having. When I woke up I was in a hotel alone and I found out that i threw up and puked because there was vomit on my clothes. Anyways, my son is best friends with their son, so we got invited to his birthday party at their house. Time goes on and Im more social and silly but Im fine. I am not really sure he really drinks a lot on working days, but on the weekend all hell breaks loose. Well a few drinks turns into pregaming with a pint of whiskey. I drank a pretty strong margarita and then had a shock top after. So I do seasonal work, which means that I travel around the country to live and work for a "season", usually Summer and Winter. Just this weekend I had my aunt over to the house for the first time for her birthday weekend and it was a disaster. While I have improved drastically with my drinking, I've learned that complete and total abstinence is my only option now. I am making this promise to myself. Well its time change i just dont know where to start fixing this mess i made. I blacked out. I'm so ashamed that I drove drunk on top of it all. I know my story isnt as bad as the others, but I can not shake this depression I have from whatever the hell happened. Show support for those you love and help them through the situation. Of course, all that drinking made for plenty of embarrassing situations. But there's no need to apologize again and again and again. She basically had to carry me home. I am 32 years old and I have lost several jobs due to drinking. [1] For example, if you once walked through the lunch room with your skirt tucked into your underwear, try to laugh about the experience. I guess saying I was hot and they wanted to hit that but then people said I was married and blah blah. Anyway around that time in the night Jack fell over and smashed through our window and took the whole thing out. The next morning he sent the recording to my mother. So, on many nights of my drunken nights I end up kissing random dude(s)I live in a small town so everyone sure knows of my antics and are definitely judging me this last weekend was definitely the worst, I was kissing and grinding on this guy in the pub in front of lots of people, some have brought it up.. HONcode standard for Went to a local bar we were having fun drinking, playing pool and chatting. I lost my phone to and a few other things mostly just upset about my phone though I have a problem with over drinking. A totally normal human emotion, shame, must be dealt with in order to learn, grow, and move forward from a haunting past. I can't imagine telling this story to my future husband. In reply to I humiliated my husband by by Anonymous (not verified). Help me. I wanted to stop talking but I couldn't stop blurting things out in 3 different languages. Now keep in mind I was still on an empty stomach, I wasnt drinking water though I normally do when I go out drinking, plus Im not a very big person, I weigh about 135-140 lbs. So Im pretty much wasted by the time I even get to the saloon, where of course I continue to drink. But I decided to man up and face the consequences, look people in the eye and apologize. I woke up around 7 times throughout the night to throw up. Often I don't know what's worse, dealing with the shame afterwards and knowing people think less of you, or not being able to connect fully with the idea or what happened because there is no memory of it for you. There was only one man sitting at the bar, and he recognized me as he was in the bar I work at earlier in the evening. Save Yourself After The Alcohol-Induced Blackout How to Get Over Embarrassing Drunk Moments Look At Your Phone. Exercising instead of drinking, sticking to a healthy daily routine, getting along well with my coworkers. This never would have happened had I not drank so much but I was already feeling kind of low so it definitely didnt help. First of all, I thought he didnt know I was even in a relationship. I think we were talking about languages and he said "I know Chezch, prostitute!" So I took one and we ended up having like 6 shots. He didnt care. Everything i do is for my family, I love them more than anything in rhis world , they are my life. I started packing up and I came back to the hostel, I saw a few girls and boys so I asked them what happened, They told me after the kiss I was shouting and throwing up everywhere and telling my friends that I'm prettier than them. Hey y'all, reading these drunken horror stories is a bit comforting to me, knowing I'm not the only one! I felt so down and hungover that when I was buying new glasses the workers asked if I was ok. Its definitely not the worst I have behaved but it was a horribly inappropriate place to get as blasted as I did to not remember anything. Im worried about how his friends view me now. I remember them laughing at it but I was just being so idiotic, like that is not something I would normally do at all Im not sure what came over me. Context: she (my sis) has severe abandonment issues, self harms when hes not there, threatens suicide and has attempted it before, she is a shell of the girl i grew up with but she is getting much better. Youre older now and stronger in the world. Save Yourself After The Alcohol-Induced Blackout How to Get Over Embarrassing Drunk Moments Look At Your Phone. It is extremely difficult and isolating living in this new country, but I now know I do not want to seek refuge in alcohol anymore. Ive been goimg to therapy for my anger issues and now i dont know if i should also go to an AA meeting lol So I take what I can get and I mirror who they are so that they like me (I always hate myself for that) theyre very nice at least and so that makes it easier. I dont think i really did anything terrible while i was there because i remember about everything. Answer (1 of 6): One of my dear friends is an alcoholic. I was so embarrassed as was still vomiting (once on the platform even) and I could smell the sick so anyone near me could too. This is the worst hangover anxiety Ive felt in a long time, I dont know how to deal with it. Advertisement "Yo, listen, I don't know who owns Kick, but I know the chat wants to see Yachty go live," he said during the video before he began donating money to fans. I remember having an u comfortable conversation with a friend and spilling too much. Maybe more who knows. However, this Saturday was the worst. There is like a fishbowl affect in which you cannot really get away from other people. And all of the neighbors were there. The night is spotty though. I was able to go to the bathroom before leaving, even though I was a bit wobbly. I got my first and only DUI that night and it scared me to my core. No matter what you do, good or bad, there's always someone who's going to look down on you. Take deep breaths: If your slip-up is causing you to panic and worry, try to slow things down. Are you blushing yet? I always get like this and I promised myself that I wouldnt get drunk with work as I dont want them to see that side of me. This is pretty out of character for me but Im going to take it as a sign to reach out to my therapist. If you let their opinions affect you, you my friend are in for a very shitty life. usually just at home on the phone with a couple single girls i know. I really need to stop drinking to say the least. Life's too short to dwell on missteps; everyone makes mistakes. I just feel so embarrassed because we were supposed to be celebrating and I really killed the mood with my belligerence. This may be difficult to do, especially in early sobriety when self-loathing is usually at its peak. Wake up with this big scrape on the top of my head and it looks rediculous. I think its time for me to stop drinking completely. He was drinking the worst scotch and literally not my type at alllllllll. IDK why he said like this but I cant remember any of it. Know that only one image of yourself matters. Ugh. Im really embarrassed about the things I do sometimes while being drunk, The whole thing is like a nightmare I can't wake up from. Once I have a single sip of beer, wine or whiskey, I will keep drinking into oblivion, and I have dozens of scary brownout/blackout stories. So embarrassed, This has happened to me before tho and i get over it in a week and go out and do the same thing next week then regret that too LOL. (2015, July 2). I don't know how to feel or what to do. Its when i have the most fun times but always the times i put myself in the worst or imbarrassing situations. Therefore, trying to justify or explain your drunken antics is a lost cause. The recording is terrible, it is the worst version of me imaginable. This morning my friends told me what happened and I have no memory of it. I woke up to bruises all over my body and filled with regret and shame. I didnt want to leave so badly that I was kicking and screaming when he tried to pick me up and putting my feet on the walls and door. And never over-board. I called my mom and sister, but I didn't tell them about how I threw up in the train. --- LIKE AND I WILL UPLOAD MORE REDDIT STORIES! She then tells me that she wants to meet up with 3 other friends and asks if I want to go drinking with them. I feel like that never gets anyone anywhere. we were chilling outside and i could see my sis just wanted to go to sleep, I don't remember what he said, something like "sit and stay", i immediately saw red and rushed round the table to sit next to her, i told her to go to bed and then sat in her seat. Hi do you know what causes you to be blackout drunk because unfortunately I get the same? Oh, the shame! Next thing I know, this big scary looking Hispanic dude is giving me a dirty look. But it is important for your significant other to be supportive as well. Why would I say that? And since Im pretty shy and introverted, i always think that a few drinks will make me more fun. When all else fails, remember that at some point in your life, someone else had to ask you for forgiveness. You know how guys can be. [1] The easiest way to get over the anxiety produced from an embarrassing moment is thus to simply laugh at yourself and the situation that just occurred. By 11.30 I was completely smashed drunk, just being annoying and obnoxious, behaving in ways I wouldnt normally sober. Do you notice yourself getting blindsided by your bad memory when you go certain places or are around certain things? You can find Becky on Facebook, Twitter, Google+ and her website. It couldve been way worse than it was, this I will have to deal with now everyday till maybe I find another job that isnt a constant reminder. my grammar is def bad while typing this bc I don't feel like going over it lmao but end of story I'm not drinking again and even if my mom offers me just 1 shot I'm not accepting that anymore, In reply to I'm 16 and 2 days ago I got by Anonymous (not verified), Am in the same problem bro and am 19years old it's Alot of pain. I was still pretty drunk when my memory starts to come back to me later in the night, I tried to leave their house and my dad wouldnt let me drive, then my boyfriend came to pick me up (keep in mind I hadnt answered any of his 15 calls all night and he didnt know where I was,) so when I finally talked to him he was pretty pissed that I wasnt communicating with him, but he picked me up and my family all came out to the street when I got in the car and started yelling at my boyfriend, blaming him for getting me drunk and for me almost leaving to drive to his house even though he didnt know how drunk I was or really anything that happened with me after the bars. You would think I've learned my lesson, but NO! I started with a pregame at one friends house doing a couple tequila shots. I even sent text to all of them that I was sorry and thankful and talked to few of them. Its really hard to admit that you have a problem with alcohol, because the world likes to reinforce the drunken mess narrative. I apologized to her and thanked her the next day. They actually made it a kids party/adult party with Jell-O shots, scotch, vodka mixed drinks and beer. Usually drink anywhere from eight to fifteen beers probably about three nights a week. Feel absolutely awful and so embarrassed I only hope that I didnt make too much of a show. The night started off good everyone was having fun and it was going pretty well. I felt bad for the guy sitting next to me and wanted to apologize but now I couldn't even speak. And Im done. You can release negative emotions and release emotional pain through swearing, so dont resist it. I just feel so low and alone and depressed. Fresh AskReddit Stories: What is the most embarrassing thing you have done drunk? I have cried and I often wonder why guys look at me as easy, well its because of my drunken behaviourI will remind you again I'm not at all like that on a daily basis. When I got home I called his friend and said we are coming back and going to go to the beach! Take Control of The Narrative. But its OK now not to do that anymore. I think I was supposed to go over that guy's house but thank god he was so fed up with my drunkenness that he hopped out of my car. The greater the offense, the more love is required to forgive that person. The day started off nice and I was not even planning on drinking at night. Can help me make smarter choices. I know I need some intervention before it takes my life away.. Most of the guys probably felt pity for me. I was throwing up until 9am. I square up with this dude, probably talking all kinds of trash, egging him on and what not. Acknowledge the Embarrassment The first step to gaining a better perspective of the embarrassing experience is acknowledging it happened and deciding to move forward. Your not alone. Just lose lose lose. I'm 36 now. But I do think the more I focus on caring for myself and for others, the shame that is left over can be constructive. To end the night I left my phone on the tube which was luckily enough picked up by someone who I've managed to contact. WRONG! It is just so embarrassing that I let myself get to this point and threw up on public transport. His friend lets call him Gordon, is friends with my boyfriend and brought him along with him. I was stupid and for some reason the two male coworkers in our group kept talking about sex and my stupid mouth would chime in like, oh yeah Ive done that. Take a few minutes to think about how you felt during your epic fail. If I drank more, it would be easy to forget my shame. 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